Saturday, December 8, 2012

Good people still exist

In this world, we see things that can harden so many people's hearts. We also see so much that shows us that those who give without regret do exist. For instance the hot topic of the week was about a New York policeman going into a shoe store and purchasing a pair of boots for a homeless barefooted man. The officer proceeded to place these boots on this man's feet.

Thursday, November 15, 2012

Children Come First

The holidays are just around the corner, and my least favorite season is coming upon us.... winter. I am more of a summer gal myself. Lately, I have been in a bit of a funk, and I don't really know what to do to get out of it. I am trying desperately to find some daily happiness or a bright spot.I am surrounded and reminded of theses positive things constantly, but maybe some vitamin D is in order!  It has just been a lot harder to do, although, I will say that I really do have a lot to be thankful for. With that said, I think maybe I will write a few things out, just off the top of my head.

Friday, October 12, 2012

Show me the money

I am beginning to really understand how our income is becoming a factor in Cameron's future. It certainly stinks to be lower/middle class with a child on the spectrum. Every good parent wants to give their child the most they can, but when that "gift" is a chance at independence, it tugs on every heart string you have. We are about to embark on yet another attempt at potty training. This will be our 4th major attempt, and hopefully,the last. Back when my husband and I originally met with Cameron's teacher, they simply told us not to even worry about until they began training him in school. His teacher then told me that 9 out of 10 kids that they had the past year were potty trained by the time they were ready to move up to the next class. That was nice to hear, but I had at least 3 failed attempts under my belt and had read how hard it is to get children on the spectrum trained by other parents.

Wednesday, October 10, 2012

2 steps forward, 1 step back

Cameron got his first "report card" of sorts this past week. They updated information on his IEP as far as skills mastery, and things seem to be trucking along. For now, a lot of focus is on pre academic needs. Some of this stuff may not be mastered until he is a lot older, but again, I am just amazed at what he has been able to do. He is making more noise in class, and they say he frequently says "stop it". LOL. That is pretty fitting.

Monday, September 24, 2012

Open and Close

So, lately, Cameron has this thing with opening and shutting doors,cabinets,drawers, toys,whatever he can get his hands on. He has now figured out how to unlock the front door, including deadbolt and locks. Earlier this week, I was changing a diaper on the baby in the living room and Cameron decided it would be a good time to go explore the neighborhood I am guessing. He bolted and all I kept thinking about was him getting hit by a car.

Sunday, September 2, 2012


Cam started school this past week. All I can say is that he is doing new things already. He is wiping his own face with a napkin, chattering more and more, signing much more than he ever has, and takes naps at school. Seriously... naps at school... long naps. They also tell me he is eating most things, but they are having to feed him. He is also playing with forks and spoons a lot more. He began taking a fork, poking it on his plate and putting it to his mouth, although the fork has no food on it, It is such a big

Monday, July 23, 2012

Goodbye 2, hello 3

 Cameron is now 3. He has "graduated" from Early Intervention. What that means is that he will be going to PPCD in the Fall... or Preschool for Special Needs Children. It is done through the regular public school system, and they are required by law to offer education and preschool to those with disabilities... like Cameron. He was evaluated earlier in the summer and accepted full day, from 8 till 2:30 m-f. I couldn't be more thrilled with the school district we live in, especially when it comes to Cameron, but this IS the public school system. A lot of parents of children with special needs find homeschooling a more viable option for their children, considering all of the tests and guidelines administered thanks to government bureaucracy.

Veggie Wars

I was finally able to get Cameron to eat some sort of fruit or veggie... shhhh. He literally went over a year without ingesting so much as a pea, apple slice, or carrot... even "hidden" in his food. I tried doing the whole "juicing" thing, the pureed and hidden thing, the serve with every meal thing, hidden in sauces, or even veggie burgers. I Still served him a variety of finger food friendly veggies at every meal... breakfast, lunch dinner, snack. I tried offering him nothing but fruit and veggies for an entire day, and guess what... he didn't eat. I found some toddler meals, Chicken with Vegetables and Quinoa at Target.... omg He LOVES it. It has VEGGIES!!!! and they aren't even hidden really well. They are about $3.50 a meal, but hey, I will take it.

Wednesday, July 11, 2012

Insurance Debacle

 I know a lot has been said about ObamaCare and everything related to healthcare recently, and opinions have been very VERY heated. I think everyone could agree that whatever system we have now is broken (really, 12 bucks for a toothbrush in the hospital?), and there isn't a magic wand to fix it all tomorrow either. Cameron has been very VERY fortunate to get certain services for his Autism Diagnosis that have been critical to his development. As we reach a new "milestone" and he gets ready to go to Special Ed preschool in a little over a month, I look at what is offered, and other options that have scientifically proven to work that simply aren't covered by insurance.

Thursday, May 24, 2012

Year in Review Part 9

Part 9, the final review of the past year! In Feb of 2011, Cam was going twice a week to a kids day out program that helped in ways I never thought it would. One goal we were trying to work on was nap-time though. He would run back and forth banging into walls seeking that sort of stimulation. He wouldn't see kids below him and would end up stomping all over them. I would usually pick him up a few minutes into nap time and call it a day... so in essence, at first, he spent about 3 hours playing, going to music, and art. His therapists would come to the kids day out program to work with him there in the new setting too. His occupational therapist introduced him to

Saturday, May 19, 2012

Year in Review Part 8

In January, we made our annual trip to go see Kevin's mom. She lives about 9 hours away, so she doesn't get to see the kiddos often. We enjoyed some decent weather while we were down at the coast, and Cameron got to go to the ocean. Casey stuck his feet in the sand for the first time. This wasn't Cameron's first visit to the beach, but it WAS the first time

Wednesday, May 16, 2012

Year in Review Part 7

For those of you just now visiting my blog for the first time, This is basically a summary of life events, regressions, achievements, about my child Cameron. He is on the Autism Spectrum. It is also a diary of sorts when it comes to my personal feelings and outlook. I wanted to do this to document our journey thus far in the hopes that this information could help at least one other family cope and deal with a new diagnosis. Hopefully, they will see the light at the end of the tunnel, they can feel that SOMEONE can relate to them and know that they are NOT alone in this journey.

Monday, May 14, 2012

Year in Review Part 6

So, now we know where we were before diagnosis up through the diagnosis, and the overwhelming grief that came with it. So, Lets just keep on trucking so we can get to happier times. :)
Cameron has his diagnosis, Casey is born, Cameron starts with his Occupational Therapist, he is introduced to PECS (more on that in a moment) and starts signing "more".  It is now around October 2011. UGH, another holiday already?

Saturday, May 12, 2012

Year in Review Part 5

Let me preface this by saying that this review is somewhat chronological, but, like any good tv show or movie, there are moments of flashback. Here is one such moment.
Cameron has his diagnosis at this point. It is the end of August. A lot has gone on in the past month. He has welcomed a new brother, turned 2, therapies have been increased, another type of therapy has been brought on board... occupational therapy. So, here's your flashback....

Thursday, May 10, 2012

Year in Review Part 4

The Evaluation.
I was scared. I was terrified that something would be "wrong" with my Cameron-Bear. See, up until this point, I thought my little prayer to God was answered and that he let my child live, but he didn't have any noticeable disabilities, so I assumed that he was "normal". I kind of felt like taking him to the psychologist was like "paying the piper". I knew he wasn't "normal". I knew he was more than JUST normal from the moment I set eyes on him.

Year in Review Part 3

July came fast. Cameron's 2nd birthday was in July, and just 3 days later, I was scheduled to go in for a scheduled c section. Our tiny little house couldn't host a true birthday party, so we found one of our favorite parks to go to. Cam is simply an outdoors kind of kid. He loves water, sand, swinging and being able to roam.

Wednesday, May 9, 2012

Year in Review Part 2

If you have not read part 1, please do so!
Now, onto the business of Part 2.
I was just beginning to understand Cameron's limitations. I pushed him to go to playgroups and felt like I was forcing him to be social when he could care less. I will be honest... I didn't know much about Autism... In fact, as harsh as it may sound, I kind of thought Autism was in some ways a form of mental retardation.

Year in Review part 1

Cameron is almost 3, Casey will turn 1 just a few days later.... Where did my babies go? Also, Since I am now somewhere in the realm of my "mid thirties" where did my life go?

Friday, May 4, 2012

School Time!

This week, my husband and I went on a tour of our local elementary school. As Cameron's 3rd birthday is quickly approaching, he is "aging out" of early intervention services. That means, he will lose his therapists. For a child having an Autism Spectrum Disorder, change... even the smallest change, can be overwhelming. I am terrified for him. So far, we have worked on changes...

Thursday, May 3, 2012

My baptism, questioned

     Church can become a habit if you let it. A habit with good intentions, however, it can still be just a habit. How many of us can go every Sunday, sit in the same spot, hear the sermon, walk out revitalized and feeling right with God, and then before you know it, Thursday comes rolling around and you realize you haven't done anything to listen to God, or read his words or show his love and mercy. So, you put on your nice clothing, play a part in your church, and think... If I can JUST be good enough...

Wednesday, February 29, 2012

Baby Cameron and NICU

Cameron finally came, after a long induction that didn't get the job done naturally, he was cut from my belly via c section. That, in itself was a nightmare. Before maybe the last few weeks of pregnancy, I was totally ok with and "elective c section", but decided last minute that I could do it, I could go through natural birth and heal a lot quicker too. I guess when they changed out my epidural bag, or maybe when I was transported from bed to surgery table, my epi line stopped working

Tuesday, February 28, 2012

Pregnant with Cameron

I was not a happy pregnant lady, nor did I feel like anything like I had imagined while being pregnant. I heard about morning sickness, and that I would just have to tough it out. The swelling, the bloating, the... omg, and I am supposed to feel GREAT after squeezing this kid out from a place I have yet to understand the actual physical mechanics of how that will happen

When will motherhood happen?

Kevin and I struggled for 3 years to have a child of our own. So far, life was simple, easy, straightforward. We did what we wanted to do, and aside from our jobs, we slept when we wanted, went to social events on a whim, blew money on things we would both find silly now. I look back at those days, and I totally get it. We would need those three years to grow stronger as a couple for life's challenges ahead.  Boy, how life changes, and QUICKLY!

We started trying to have a child, and every month, I was hopeful. I charted, planned,

Autism and my Family

 The best thing any person can do nowadays is educate themselves on what autism is and is not. Once people educate themselves and recognize Autism, then life can be made a lot simpler for those who have been affected.
The number of children being diagnosed today is just astounding. 1 out of 110 children... just in boys, it is 1 in 70! * edit to add... Now it is 1 in 54! Kevin and I went through a grieving period (like most parents of newly diagnosed children do) and we felt like we had lost a child. At first, we lied to ourselves and said that he was just going through some small changes....  Day after day, we watched our loving affectionate son drift away from us and go to an unknown place.